Thursday, April 8, 2010
Say it with me - NO PIZZA AGAIN!
Ok, so tonight we went out to Sidestreet Pizza with the in-laws. And well, if you've ever been there you probably know they don't really have anything healthy on their menu. But I could have done a lot better then I did. But I'll just be honest, I didn't feel like eating healthy tonight. I watched it all day, probably too much. By the time I went to dinner tonight I had only consumed 970 calories and had probably burned off most of that during my work out this morning so I was running on empty and that's never a good place to be when you go in to a restaurant. So I ate pizza and wings and way too much bread. And to be honest, I feel like crap now. I'm already dying for my work out tomorrow so that I can relieve my guilty conscience.....I wasn't planning on working out tomorrow since we are going to have to leave the house by 7am but I just can't stand the thought of skipping two workouts this week especially when I've eaten so crappy. Plus while waiting at my mother in laws house I watched the infomercial for Insanity (funny since I watch it EVERY day!) but seeing everyone's before and after pics really made me realize how dad-gum far I still have to go. They are all rockin' abs and I am still seeing a pudge. And eating crap like I did tonight certainly doesn't help my cause.....anyway, so I'm getting up at 4:45am, yes, that early, to get my work out and shower in before we hit the road. I'll feel so much better about myself and this weekend away if I get it done and accomplished. I'm really struggling this time around with the diet part, I did this with P90X too, stuck with a diet the first round but totally crashed on the second round. I keep trying to get my motivation back to eat right 24/7 again. I did it for 60 days straight, no cheating and yet I can't seem to pull myself together again and it's pissing me off! I know I can do, I'm just not willing myself to do it enough.
So this was a vent blog...just to let you know I'm feeling awful about myself tonight! Ugh, I'm a loser, for tonight at least. I keep saying tomorrow and that's getting me no where again. I only have like 10lbs to go! I'm so close yet so far away....goodness, I could throw up just thinking about what I consumed tonight and how many thousands of calories it probably was. Holy cow, Alaythea. I'm getting lazy again.....I've got to shore up and get myself back into boot camp mode. Summer is here and I'm still not where I wanna be. I need to go buy swim suits but I just keep holding off because I know I'm not how I wanna look in a bathing suit just yet. Untanned, and not as toned as I need to be. Well, this was a good motivational speech, Sarge!!! I'm back at it tomorrow......please don't let me slip up again, I'll hate myself even more!