I'm have a low self esteem day. Don't worry about me, I have them several times a week! Lol! I'm used to them and I know they'll pass. But there are days when I just feel kinda down on myself. And here's the thing, I don't have a correct view on myself I know. My hubby and I were talking about it today. I have such a high standard of perfection - as far as how I want and expect myself to look and in my eyes I am SO far from that standard and I fail to see any good. But it doesn't help when I see another "girl" I think I'm probably close to as far as size goes then I hear she's a size 4 or a 2 and I honestly just can't see it. I'm not saying they are lying but I wear mostly 6's and sometimes 8's still. And I'm not talking about those girls who say they are a 4 and they look like a stuffed sausage spilling out of their clothes. I'm talking about girls that look good and yet I'm 2 or 3 sizes bigger then them. Then I'm wondering if I see myself in too good of a light. Do I think I'm smaller then I really am?!! Lol! Here's the thing - I'm sure I'll get a few comments saying "Girl, you look great!" or "You shouldn't be so hard on yourself" or "Be confident the way you are...." and those are all well and good and I appreciate compliments, don't get me wrong, they make my day! But I also think that for me holding myself to a high standard only makes me work harder to try and get there. But I'm doing my best to make be more positive, truly. But there are days that I'm just not feelin' it!