*Sniff, sniff*

Lately it seems like every time I log on to Blogspot I've lost more followers. I try not to worry about the numbers, I know lots of people read my blog that don't necessarily "follow" it but it's one thing for you to remain at the same amount of followers but it's kinda discouraging to see followers dropping like flies. I know I haven't been the most interesting blogger lately and I guess I've just been a bit a funk. I'm following so many amazing blogs and I just feel so boring and inadequate lately. Other women who write blogs have such a delightful way of writing, they make normal every day kind of things seem magical (I just state it like it is, boring and simple.) or they have lovely posts showing off all their super great style (I switch up between the same 3 or 4 outfits most of the time.) or they are telling about their great adventures each day (I do the same ole thing over and over.).......yeah, like I said I'm in a bit of a funk. I'm feeling stuck and bored with my fitness routine, mainly my eating habits. I'm feeling lousy as a mom, wife and person in general. I don't feel like I do enough, yet I can't seem to figure out how to do more. I have these dreams and ideas but I can't figure out how to make them happen, nor do I feel like I have "what it takes". I feel out of sync. I can't pin point what's wrong so I just keep hoping that I'll just wake up better. I started reading a book called Visioneering tonight and in some ways it's so encouraging and enlightening but in other ways I just feel like I don't have what it takes to be a person with a vision. Or at least a person who can work to make that vision a reality. I have a vision, I feel like it's something God laid on my heart because honestly it's not really something I think I'd dream up on my own. But it's overwhelmingly huge. I can't even begin to figure out where to begin. Not to mention everyone involved in my "vision" haven't been "visionized" yet! Lol! But sometimes the weight and the desire for that to come true weighs very heavily on my heart and mind. Again though, I have no idea where to start.

So for those of you still following me and still read this here tiny blog, thank you! My readers do mean a lot to me and hopefully I'll get back in the swing of things and be a little more upbeat and interesting soon - I keep trying to draw inspiration from all my wonderful fellow bloggers. It just eats me up when I see, what I feel, are far more boring blogs then mine with loads of followers.....sheesh! But whatev, I'll keep at it because I started this thing not to see how many people would read but because I just wanted a little space to record my thoughts, ideas, dreams, every day happenings and my growing daughter. I need to keep that simple thought in mind.....