Just blowing bubbles....

I tend to get overly anxious and upset about things. I let little things bother me. It's just how I am. I try not to be that way, I try to relax - clear my head. But sometimes I just can't do the mind over matter thing and make it happen. Then I get pissy and it's stupid, even I know that but some days I just want to pout! Some times my daughter can be the way, I tend to think she's more like her daddy but the older she gets the more I see myself in her and not always in the best ways. She tends to be quickly frustrated and but unlike me she doesn't give up, and that is like her daddy. Today though I was watching her blow bubbles. Her daddy let her blow them inside and she was sitting very quietly just blowing bubbles. Over and over, the same thing, yet so contentedly. I watched how even when she didn't blow it quite right she'd try again, and again. How fascinated she was at each little bubble. Even though it was the same thing over and over, each time was exciting for her. Some days simple little actions like these remind me that I'm too uptight. She finds such pleasure in such little things. Or seemingly little things. They may not mean anything to me but they mean the world to her.....I keep trying to remember that not everything is a big deal. Cares are like bubbles, they appear for a moment but then they are gone - we can't keep trying to catch them or hold on to them. But we do have to be careful not to slip in the aftermath! Gianna bubble blowing has left a slippery mess in the floor and if we aren't careful someone might slip and fall in it. It's the same with problems and worries, we can let them go or at least watch them disappear but if we aren't careful we can slip and fall in the invisible mess....
I had a great day today....I got my hair cut as my Mother's Day "gift". It was nice, I love going to a salon and having my hair done. I love getting it shampooed and cut and styled and walking out feeling like a new woman! Not to mention just getting out and having some "me" time. My sis went with me and we went to the mall after and got gifts for our mother and had lunch. All in all it was a good time out and I appreciate my husband giving me the day out! After I got home though I was a little tired (I was up at 6:40am to work out before leaving) and I let me crabbiness get the better of me. Beej made a suggestion that I copped an attitude about (yes, I still cop attitudes!) and I let it ruin a couple of hours of our evening. Time wasted. So Beej is taking a little time for himself now (he deserves it just as much as I do...) and Gianna is blowing bubbles and I'm trying to learn valuable life lessons. Some days I'm slow to learn.

" Our attitude towards life determines life's attitude towards us." - John N. Mitchell