Home Sweet Home

"The ache for home lives in all of us, the safe place where we can go as we are and not be questioned."

We are home from our little weekend trip to Savannah. It was such a great time, we enjoyed seeing Beej's brother and his family so much. It was Gianna's first time to actually spend time with them and she loved them! I hope we'll get to see them more often.
It is good to be home though, I love to travel but I always love to come home! I like to be where I am comfortable and my routine is established. Gianna is a great traveler but I do enjoy the routine I have with her when I am home.
I have so many "plans" for June and I have no idea how I'm going to accomplish them all. It seems every plan takes money and I currently don't have a ton of that pouring in! Lol! I am looking at getting a part time job. Since Beej will be home more with his job "change" coming up. And my mom is out of school for the summer so between Beej, her and my sister I'm hoping I wouldn't have to put Gianna into daycare or anything. Plus not only would the extra money be nice but it would be nice to kinda "get out" and have a little edge of independence back too. Plus, like I said, I have several projects I'd like to get done this month for Gianna.
Beej only has 8 more days of work at the plant and the he starts his new "job" officially and he'll be gone half of June to help the band at some Summer Camps.
Gianna is officially, in my book, ready for potty training! She came to me earlier today and said, "Time for di-pee change, momma!" and sure enough her diaper was full! And then just a few minutes ago she came to me and turn around so I could check her diaper and said, "I have poopy now!" Dear Lord!!! June is the month of change at the Carroll household for sure!!!

The way things go....

We are in Savannah, Ga for the weekend and I'm so happy to have a few days to relax and enjoy myself with family! Beej's brother and sis in law are always so much fun, so generous and welcoming! I love visiting them and everytime we visit I wish we lived closer to them. Gianna loves them already, "Aunt Candi" and "Uncle Peaches"! They have been kind enough to offer to keep Gianna tomorrow evening so that Beej and I can go down to Riverstreet and eat dinner, shop around and just enjoy some time with each other! I'm very excited and very thankful!
So I have decided that the month of June will bring big changes to my routine with Gianna. We will taking away her sippy cup at night - she goes to bed with a full cup of juice or milk and I'm ready for that to be done with. Then I think it's time to move her into a "big girl" bed before we start trying to potty train. I am going to get rid of her crib and changing table and replace it with a toddler bed and dresser. I want to get new bedding and re decorate her room a little more 'grown up! And then the big step - potty training! I'm studying up on a "3 day" method of potty training. I know someone who is trying it now with her son - I hope they have great success and that we will follow in their footsteps in a few weeks time! I can't believe Gianna is getting so big, so fast! I guess I thought she'd be in her crib forever! Lol! But I think I'm ready for this! Or am I?

"Pursue"

I am feeling a little "blah" today. Not really down, or sad, or tired, just "blah"! I don't really have the motivation to get up and do much. I've started on the laundry and thawed out chicken for dinner, managed to get Gianna dressed - although I haven't bothered to change out of pj's myself! But some days are like that! Gianna is watching SpongeBob, whom she loves dearly. And eating a late lunch of peanut butter and jelly. As I was making her sandwhich she said "chockit mil, Mommy" and I was like, "What?" Finally after repeating herself several times I understood she wanted Chocolate Milk with her sandwhich! She is too cute and I love her dearly! And even though it 75 outside and 68 inside she has insisted on wearing her jacket and socks all day!
After much encouraging from lots of people in my life but most importantly my hubby, I have once again picked up my guitar and pen to hopefully starting writing songs again. I often doubt myself and they doubt keeps me from trying things. I see others that are oh, so talented and I tend to just bottle up and hideaway. But I felt sorta inspired lately so I have started trying to play some each day. Beej has listened to some old recordings of a few songs I had written and I has picked one he feels he can resurrect (my words not his!) and make it something. So as soon as my voice heals up ( I have a cold!) I will hopefully record it and get it put up for everyone to listen to! I'm excited to see what Beej can do with it. He's so crazy talented!!! I am beyond proud of him!
Our lives are about to change though, Beej is leaving his job of almost 3 years to pursue his love and passion in life - music - full time! We are excited and yet a bit nervous! We both have prayed and feel this what we are supposed to do and the direction we need to go but it's always nerve wracking to step out in faith! Please pray for us, that God will bless and provide! Beej will be traveling alot now, even more then he has been. Between the band and the "side job" he will be working he'll be gone around 3 weeks out of the month. I miss him terribly when he's gone but I am thrilled he is doing what he loves!
Tomorrow I'm going to refine and finish the lyrics to the song I plan to record and I'll post them for you to read.....they are simple......