100 Questions.

(Found this over at irocksowhat.com)

1. Are you young at heart, or an old soul? I'd say a little bit of both - I dread the thought of actually being old and I feel young but then I think and act a little "old" I guess. I've always been pretty serious about stuff.
2. What makes someone a best friend? Someone that loves you no matter what and is there for you when you actually need them!
3. What Christmas (or Hanukkah) present do you remember the most? When my hubby got me an iPod Touch! Totally unexpected and I loved it so much.
4. Tell me about a movie/song/tv show/play/book that has changed your life. The Hunger Games. It sounds cliche but seriously, it made me totally rethink myself and life.
5. Name one physical feature that you like about yourself, and one you dislike. I like my legs, and I hate my midsection.
6. Would you like to reconnect with any friends you’ve lost contact with? Maybe, it's easy to remember the good until you're reconnected sometimes!
7. What’s more important in a relationship: physical attraction or emotional connection? Emotional connection, if you have that it leads to a good physical connection as well.
8. Name a movie that you knew would be terrible just from reading the title. Any Sci-Fi channel movie! Lol!.
9. What holiday do you most look forward to? Thanksgiving and Christmas.
10. How is the relationship between you and your parents? Ok, I guess. Not what I wish it was but that's life. My dad and I have always gotten along well, he's easy going and funny. My mom and I don't see eye to eye on anything pretty much so that kinda puts a strain between us.
11. You’ve got the TV on, but you’re not really watching. What channel is the TV on? The Food Network
12. Name a song that never fails to make you happy. That's All You Gotta Do by Brenda Lee
13. You know at least one person named Michael. Tell me about him. He's a fitness nut and he also collects watches. He my hubby's boss.
14. Have you ever read the “missed connections” on Craigslist? Have you ever posted one, or wanted to? Nope. I don't even know what that is! Lol!
15. If you could pick anywhere to live the rest of your life, where would it be? Not sure because I haven't visited everywhere! So I might think I want to stay there the rest of my life but how can I know for sure?! I'm pretty excited about living in Asheville, NC soon!
16. Can money buy happiness? No, it can't. Until you learn to be happy with nothing you'll never be happy with everything. You'll constantly want more. But, it certainly can't hurt to have it!
17. Do you drink? Smoke? Do drugs? Why, or why not? I maybe have a "drink" once a year. Seriously. I've never smoked and I've never done any drug of any kind. And I'm happy about that!
18. Is there anyone close to you that you know you can’t trust? You don’t have to give names. Absolutely!
19. Where was your favorite place to go when you were a little kid? Out in the woods to play.
20. Have you ever spent a night in the hospital? Yes, several times. When I had a c-section and when I had my gallbladder surgery.
21. Do you enjoy being with only one or two friends, or with a large group of people? I like being one on one with friends. 
22. Do you like the type of music your parents listen to? Do your parents like the type of music you listen to? I like some of what my dad used to listen to like Led Zepplin and Fleetwood Mac. I don't know what my mom used to listen to. 
23. Have you ever been bullied? Have you ever bullied anyone else? Not really bullied, I've been made fun of but not in a really serious way. And I'm not a bully at all! Perks of being home schooled I guess!
24. If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be? Outback's steak and mashed potatoes!
25. If your partner wanted to wait until marriage before having sex, would you stay in that relationship? Yes, of course, but I'm married so that's taken care of! Lol!
26. Do you believe in a God? With all my heart!
27. Of all the social networks in the world, why use twitter? Because I don't have to follow people I don't want to. If they want to follow/stalk me they can without me having to read their crap in return!
28. What’s your favorite hashtag to track? I don't really track hashtags but I like to when I'm watching a TLC show, it's kinda funny to see the feedback.
29. Would you call yourself/your family “middle class?” I think we are considered lower middle class! Lol!
30. Name a TV series you didn’t enjoy until after it ended. Lost but then we never finished it after we started it.
31. Have you ever bought a product from an infomercial? No! Most of that stuff looks like crap!
32. If you could give up your car and never have to drive again, would you? No way, we're about to be a one car family for a month or so and I'm freaking out!
33. If you go back to one point in time to give advice to yourself, when would you go and what would you say? I'd go back to the point where I decided not to have a wedding. I don't regret getting married but I regret letting the fact that some of my family members didn't want me to get married to stop me from having one of the most important days of my life. 
34. What’s your “quirkiest” habit? Twirling my hair when I'm board, nervous or tired. It drives my hubby crazy!
35. What is “normal?” Are you normal? Normal is subjective. I'm normal to me!
36. Someone close to you is dying. You have the choice to let this person live for 10 more years, but if you do, you cause the death of 10 strangers. You don’t have to see them die. Do you take the offer? Sadly, I'd probably say yes. 
37. What is one thing you could never forgive? People who harm/murder children. No sin is unforgivable to God but my human heart has a hard time forgiving people who do that kind of thing.
38. Would you rather be in a relationship after the honeymoon period ends, or be single? In my relationship. Wouldn't change a thing!
39. Is it possible for guys and girls to be just friends? I think so. 
40. Where do you and your friends go to hang out? Restaurants usually.
41. Write the first sentence of your obituary. Alaythea Marie Carroll has passed from this world....
42. What is the best TV theme song ever? X-Files!
43. When you were young, what would you dream you would be when you grew up? A singer.
44. When you’re alone in your own home, do you walk around naked? No! Lol! 
45. What gets you out of bed in the morning? Life!
46. Do you want to have more friends than you have right now? I wish I had a few more, but good ones.
47. What part of the past year sticks out in your mind? Deciding for sure we were moving to Asheville!
48. You win a scratch-off lottery game that gives you $2000 a week (after taxes) for the rest of your life. Do you keep your job? Um, no way! I could easily love on $2000 a week!
49. Could you be in a long-distance relationship? If you’re in one, what makes yours work? Yes, I've done it. My hubby and I did the long distance thing for about 8 months. Lots of wonderful letters and phone conversations.
50. What’s the best route to your heart? Quality time. Spend time with me and I'll love you!
51. Have you ever met someone through the internet, then met them in real life? Yes, when I was younger I met a few girls because we loved the same band. 
52. What is your favorite sport? Football! 
53. What has been troubling you lately? Working out all the details of moving but it's coming together!
54. Did you enjoy your high school prom? If you haven’t gotten there yet, do you look forward to it? If you didn’t go, why not? I went to two proms - one with a friend to his HUGE Sr. prom and then I went to my Sr. home schooler's prom alone but it was still fun!
55. What do you use more often: your intuition or logical reasoning? I'm a pretty logical person.
56. Do you know what makes you happy? I know some of the things that make me happy....
57. Tell me about the last book you read. I'm reading the third book in The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo series. It's been pretty good. Weird but good!
58. What is the nicest compliment you’ve ever been given? That I'm a great wife and mother.
59. Who was your first crush? This guy I went to church with named Matthew. He was a lot older than me but I thought I was going to marry him! Lol!
60. Do you believe that there is life on other planets? Who really knows?!
61. Predict what your life will look like a year from now. Completely different. I'll be living in a new home, I'll be working, and I'll have a "new" car.....It will look nothing like it does now.
62. Often, people will ask how your last relationship ended. I want to know how it began. I'm still in my "last" relationship. But it started when he introduced himself to me at youth....the rest is history. sorta.
63. Where is your favorite place to go out and eat? Outback! That place never gets old.
64. What is something you want to change about your current situation? What my hubby gets to do for a living and having better finances.
65. Early bird or night owl? Early bird! I can barely stay up past 10pm!
66. Are there any childhood possessions you still hold on to? Not really...I have a t-shirt from high school I can't seem to part with but that's about it.
67. Give me an unpopular opinion you have. I don't believe in gay marriage.
68. What was the last song that was stuck in your head? "Gypsy" by Fleetwood Mac.
69. Where do you live? Be as general or specific as you want. Currently I live in an old farmhouse in the country in NC and I can't wait to move!
70. Do you believe in giving kids medals and trophies for participation? No, either you win or you don't. It's not wrong to lose or bad but you shouldn't get a medal for it! Lol!
71. What was the longest car ride you’ve ever taken? We drove from Alabama all the way to upstate NY when I was girl....it took us two days.
72. Have you ever taken part in a protest? No, I agree in standing up for what you believe but protestors are usually kinda kooky.
73. Would you ever use an online dating service? Maybe. But since I'm married I don't think I have to worry about that!
74. What is your ethnic heritage? Lebanese, on my mom's side. Most people think I'm Greek (because my name is) or Italian (because of my dark skin and hair!).
75. Describe a person that inspires you. Determined, strong and smart.
76. If you earn minimum wage doing what you love, would you? Yes, better than minimum wage doing something you hate!
77. Do you believe in luck? Not really. 
78. Describe the last time you were very angry at someone. Well, I was angry! Lol! 
79. Do you want to live until you’re 100? If I'm physically and mentally healthy then yes!
80. Do people change? If so, how do you keep a relationship together when both of you start to change? Yes, they change but when you are in a relationship you choose to change together.
81. Have you ever risked a friendship by telling someone you liked them? Nah.
82. Would you rather be alone doing something you enjoy, or doing something you don’t like with your best friends? I don't know, I hate being alone so I guess doing something I don't like with friends!
83. Do you practice what you preach? Yes, I try to. I mess up but I do my best. 
84. If you take precautions to stay safe, do you ultimately act more recklessly? I am not a reckless person at all. I'm always cautious and think ahead.
85. What do you value more in a significant other: Attractiveness or intelligence? Intelligence.
86. Are you hard-headed? I can be.
87. Have you ever laughed uncontrollably when it was socially inappropriate? Probably but I don't remember an exact time.
88. When have you felt most alive? When I'm doing something fun with my husband!
89. Would you prefer to live? A city? The suburbs? The countryside? The mountains? The city, that's why we're moving!
90. Do you often skip breakfast? Never. I always eat breakfast, it's like my coffee!
91. How do you know what true love is? When you trust that person without a shadow of a doubt.  
92. Would you want to know the exact date and time you were going to die? No way.
93. Where is “home” for you? Wherever my husband and daughter are....but Huntsville, AL will always be what I think of as "home".
94. What song best describes your life right now? Uh, nothing comes to mind. 
95. Do you want to be perfect? Physically perfect yes! Who doesn't want to be perfect?!
96. What have you never tried, but would really like to someday? What’s holding you back? Salsa dancing. I guess money is holding me back. 
97. How do you express your creativity? I'm not a very creative person. The few times I do get creative I usually write a song.
98. Describe your neighborhood. I don't know them. I live in the country and we aren't exactly close to neighbors.
99. Name something you only liked because it was popular. I can't think of anything. I won't not like something because it's popular but I rarely like something because it is popular.
100. Give me the story of your life in six words. Quiet, sheltered, interesting, loved, and great.

Currently, people!

Reading: I just finished reading Demon Seed by Dean Koontz. Weird and not my favorite by him at all!  Lol! But it was a quick read, I read it in an hour or so while laying out. I started the third book in The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo trilogy, The Girl Who Kicked The Hornet's Nest. I just started but so far I've really liked the series. It's a bit different then what I normally read. It's more of a criminal fiction type book and I don't usually read that kind of thing but it's been good and a nice break from what I normally read.

Watching: Pregnant In Heels! That show is hilarious. The crazy rich people are nuts. Some of the stuff they do, expect, or hope is just down right ridiculous! Movie wise I just watched Underworld Awakening and honestly I was a bit disappointed. It wasn't a bad movie and Kate Beckinsale was great as always but I just didn't feel the story line was all that exciting. Right around the time I finally felt it was starting to get somewhere it ended! But they did leave it wide open for another and hopefully that one will have more of the Lycan/Vampire Michael in it! :-)

Thinking About: SO MUCH! But mainly just working on getting a job lined up for when we move. I'm trying so hard not to be discouraged. I've been in about 8 applications so far and mostly I get an email back saying, in other words, "lots of people want this job too so don't count on hearing back from us." And getting a job isn't really an option thing, I have too. And I'm so afraid no one will hire me!!! I'm afraid my lack of "working" in the past six years is really doing me in. I've started putting my minimal office assisting for my parents as my current "job" just so something is there. I'm trying to put a nick name since someone told me my name is too hard for people to say. I need something in the evenings and weekends because until Gi starts back school I have to be home with her and we'll only have one vehicle until I'm working. Yeah, I'm sorta freaking out about it.

Anticipating: Hearing back from our realtor about our offer on a home! We met and signed the papers for our first official offer "contract" and he was handing it in this morning. I realize it could be a week or longer before we hear back especially with Memorial Day on Monday. But I'm praying hard they get back with us sooner. I want this place SO bad! I keep imagining my stuff in it, how I'll arrange stuff, what living there would be like, etc. So, yeah.....anticipating that a lot!

Listening to: Sky Sailing and Sixpence None The Richer. Sky Sailing is Owl City - he did a project of some old songs that he wrote long before he was Owl City. They are so pretty and I just love his voice and song writing. I've been a SNTR/Leigh Nash fan for awhile. My absolute favorite album is their Divine Discontent. It's amazing. I got their first album and listened to it last night and it was just as good. Her voice is enchanting.

Eating: Trying to eat better. The past few days every time I eat, no matter what I eat I seem to get indigestion. It feels like heart burn but in my stomach. Not pleasant. And it's no matter how "bland". Even oatmeal seems to bring it on. So I'm almost a little nervous about eating. I'm trying to eat more fruits and veggies but honestly, I hate veggies. I seriously have to force myself to eat any. I could eat fruit all day longs - I like salad with dressing (lol!) and broccoli if I make it in a stir fry or eat it raw, again, with dressing. So not exactly super healthy. But right now I'm on oatmeal kick! Lol!

Working On: Sorting through stuff in my house - deciding what to get rid of and what to keep before we move. Even though we clean out stuff regularly there is still way more stuff then we want to move into a new home. Our goal is to take only the stuff we absolutely must have and start replacing other things with stuff we really love and want once we move. I feel like at least 1/2 of our current stuff we have not because we really love it but because we just have it. Lol! We are doing a HUGE two day yard sale in a little over a week. This house is going to look so bare soon but I'm ready. We've started collecting boxes too we can start packing. As soon as I'm pretty sure we're getting this place everything is going in boxes. Not to mention the place we are trying to get is on the third story so moving stuff up three flights of stairs is going to be fun. :-)

Wishing: I had a job lined up and that we knew for sure we were getting this place! But it's coming....I'm doing my best to stay extremely positive through all this. No point in being negative, that never accomplishes anything.

What are you currently doing?!

Torn.

Life hasn't quite gotten crazy yet but I know it's coming and I'm nervous. I don't handle stress really well and neither does my hubby so between the two of us stressful times are just not fun. But we get through them and that's the key. But it's just kinda unsettling when you know the "storm" is looming ahead. In the end, once it all dies down, it'll be worth every stressful moment.

But I do feel a bit torn.....and it's really silly but never the less my heart does feel torn. I'm excited about the changes ahead and there are going to be SO many. But the stupid part of me is scared of the change. Even though my life isn't "perfect" right now and I know this move is only going to better it I still freak out a bit. Right now I know what each day holds pretty much, I know our "schedule", I know Gi's school and the teachers and how things work there, I know my way around town, etc. But there are so many things about how things currently are that I don't like. And I know these things are going to change for the better soon.

There are things I dread like all the change of address stuff - you forget how many things you have your address on until you have to change it all! All the cutting off utilities at one place and getting them turned on in another....finding Gi a new pediatrician. Oy, vey. I dread that so much. We just found a pedi office we love and now I've got to start this all over again. *tears*. Gi is pretty nervous about her new HUGE school. And I can't blame her but I keep trying to tell her how fun it'll be and she'll make all new friends, etc. But I'm nervous about trying to get her enrolled late and finding my way around a new school and learning a whole new schedule. Oh, and did I mention I'm losing "my" car in a couple of weeks? Yeah, I've been borrowing my parents Explorer for a while now because we needed a second car now that Gi had started school. And it's gonna be gone with no second car lined up. I'm freaking out just a bit. Somehow in the next two months we've got to buy a home, move, find me a job that will work with my schedule, and buy a car. We're going to have a mortgage and a car payment - two things we've never had. I'm freaking out just a teeny tiny bit. I mean, people, I haven't worked a job outside my home since June 2006!!! SIX whole years, ya'll. Six. I'm not nervous about the actual work. I'm nervous about just trying to find someone to hire me because so far I haven't had very good luck.....and that scares me. And buying a car....oh, my. I'm not ready to be a grown up! Lol!

But I know in the end, by the time the Holidays roll around, we'll be settled in a new routine and I won't remember all this intimidation I'm feeling right now. At least I hope so! Lol!

I know there are great things ahead - the other part of me is extremely excited! I'm excited to actually have my own home, one that is more "us" and not someone else's style or taste, I'm excited to discover more of what Asheville has to offer. It's going to be amazing being so close to restaurants, malls, festivals, downtown, etc. We live 45-55 minutes from the nearest anything and suddenly that's going to be like 15 minutes away! What?!

So yeah, my heart feels torn.....as I walked Gi into school this morning I felt a little sad. I can't believe that her first year of school is almost over. Everyone has been so great, and her teachers have been wonderful and she's made friends and it's going to be a bit sad to leave that behind. But we can't hold on to things forever. We have to move on and experience even greater things and I have to keep reminding my heart of that.